"If I fell in love with you
Would you understand me, dear
Love is weird "

Its Chirstmas soon .

Argh , its one of the worst time of the year .

Because there are practically sales all over singapore

& when you're without enough cash ,

all you can see is just ... SEE

haha , average luck fellows like me can still manage to grab a item or 2

unlucky person can just wait till next year {:

& its really miserable .

Its seems like money is never enough .

Duhs , okay who doesn't know that .

I'm so "happy" with my job .

Except for the waking up time .

Wah , thats really damn early .

However , what i love most is that i can get commision everyday .

When there's a sales , i clinch it and i get 1% .

Don't start laughing at me , 1% is not little at all .

At first i was thinking the same , 1% , i might as well don't take .

Than came my first commission , the sales was S$26.10.

My commission was like 25cents .

I told my mum i donate to her ._.

But when things progress slowly , the commission was higher & higher .

I get mostly $1-25 commission .

Today i set a record for myself ,

a $66.66 sales commission .

If everyday i get such luck , i think i can donate my basic pay to the company alr .

Just live off with the commission i receive .

Can't wait for month end to come {:

Nyhahahahahahas ,

okay full stop in dreaming alr .

i paid a heavy price to earn such money ,

& that is sacrifising my beauty sleep .

Oh & when i've nothing to do in office ,

i played facebook .

I think i completed 80% of the quiz in facebook alr .

Its so damn boring ._.

I took pictures too .

And all got heavy eyebag , except this :}

Oh and i believe iyoz belong to me alr {:

Day 4 of work .

Dangs ~ i'm down already .

I really cannot stand waking up so early in the morning .

Mood was like damndamn piss off .

I wonder why i felt that way too .

Duhhs , i really need at least 8 hours of rest .

& i'm sleeping at 11 later for sure .

Oh , i need cash cash cash .

Anyone have those 1 day part time job ?

Best is 1 hour 7dollars {:

Oh , i need to have this sort of job ,

so when i'm free i can work & have cash .

There are sales everywhere around singapore .

I spend my entire fortune in the past 2 weeks already .

I'm left with only 20plus bucks .

How am i to survive ?

Everything need money

Breakfast lunch dinner movies drinks clothes everything

is there anything in the world that is free of charge ?

Laughs , anyway i read my previous myself just now .

& i spotted so many funny errors .

Hahaha , my command in English is really very limited .

I shall improve on that by reading English storybook .

Laughs , i can only read English storybook anyway ,

because i cannot understand a single shit in those Chinese books .

I want to buy a thickthick storybook .

& i'm going buy one after Christmas ,

than i can read it after i quit my job {:

Wheets , i pray for December to end quickly ,

so i can officially end my job now & proceed with my plans .

Friday is Hari Raya .

HOLIDAYS , yeah .

I'm going to the library with iyoz !

I'm going to sleep while she study ,

yeapyeap , this is my plan .

Oh , few more minutes to 11 pm .

I still got work in the morning ._.

I'm signing off le {:

I'm not going to contradict with myself anymore

& living in this world with fake pretence of emotion .

It seem just so hard for me to have my chapter of

story to be written & completed as a book .

It may jolly well be a curse .

Curse like we see in the movies ,

that stay on to you for life
It may even be ease off from me , the next day i wake up .

Maybe i'm author & i'm searching for stories around the world .
Stories of heartbreaking & sorrows incident .

Tragedy , betrayal , unfaithful & conflicts .

Maybe its not just a curse ,

perhaps i'm just too engross in the story

that i have unknowningly acted in it as well .

& when the time comes ,

the clock strikes ,

i know its time for me to wake up .

I'm awaken from the chapter of the story

& begin searching for a new one to fall into .

This may be just a endless trap .

Maybe at the next year of this day ,

you may by chance ,

read on my new chapter .

Its alright when i'm first brought to each story ,

i felt nothing when i heard sorrows and saddness .

but as time pass by , when i fall into the story ,

jealousy came & love was nurture .

Before you even knew it happen ,

love strikes .

But story are just like fairytales ,

they come & go when you even realise it .

I dreaded everything .

I hate the chapter of stories ,

hated each & every of it .

Because i'm just loving the character i am playing ,

too much that i'm unwilling stop .

Its time to search for solution ,

a way that can stop everything .

I remember vivdly that when i once had a similar story ,

a chapter that was name 'chapter 1' around this time ,

someone told me that this was still not the end .

When 'chapter 2' was out ,

the same thing was told .

Its may seem hilarious to whoever the readers are now ,

but its excruciation & irritating .

You wouldn't want be the author of the story .

Because you know that you will grow sick of it someday too .

I once thought i never will ,

& time proves me likewise .

I've lost , defeated utterly .

Game Over may be the two word for me .

I've a new chapter ,

which is different from the other two .

but one thing the same is ,

i'm closing them .

'take a deep breath'

hmm , things are better when i ended the story .

Now , i can use another side of me .

The side that was not indulge in the story ,

the side that was purely the author ,

not the character .

It may not feel easy ,

but as time goes by ,

i'll see that i'm able to release the emotion .

Besides , thats the ability of 'Gemini'

We have two different character ,

& i am trying to play mine well .

Laughs ~

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I edited this post thrice already .

Its Gaga in the house {:

Wonderful

If I fell in love with you
Would you understand me, dear
Love is weird

I colored you a valentine
Struggled just to stay inside the lines
I lose my mind

I really can't believe
I lost myself again

Looking for something crazy
Beautiful love and now
I'm talking in circles again
Have my love, baby
Are you hungry for wonderful
'Cause I am, 'cause I am

I wrote a song about your eyes
Ate a slice of cherry pie
I cried all night

On the bench inside the park
I'll kiss you slowly in the dark
I'll never stop

I really can't believe
I lost myself again

Looking for something crazy
Beautiful love and now
I'm talking in circles again
Have my love, baby
Are you hungry for wonderful
'Cause I am, 'cause I am

Baby take me for a ride
Maybe get a little high
In a place we've never been
Time is nothing but a line
We leave everything behind
It'd be so wonderful, wonderful

Looking for something crazy
Beautiful love and now
I'm talking in circles again
Have my love, baby
Are you hungry for wonderful
'Cause I am, wonderful 'cause I am

Thats a song that i never get sick of listening .

Laughs , she doesn't have music video for the song yet .

Dangs , maybe she will never film it .

Anyway , its bag day today {:

I'm going to carry my beautiful bag out for the first time later .

& i swear i wont pee at night already .

Yesterday night i cannot hold my bladder so i ran to my toilet .

Guess what , spooky things happen .

Wah piang , i was like "so suay meh"

haha , later at night before sleep die die die dun drink water le .

& i want watch 2012 .

I'm so slow serious , from october till now i want watch

& yet , i still haven .

Hahaha , i'm going catch it realreal soon seriously .

& i'm not contradicting myself with yesterday .

i know i say that 20th november will be the last time i watch a movie for the year .

But it means as a date {:

day after that , the mood that i bring to theatre will be different {:

Its chimology right ?

Hahahah , you need to have big brains like me .

Oh , i'm going to bath & get ready :}

no you can't read my poker face

I've watch this film at last .

Its just so disappointing .

No story , no nothing .

Story is so alike to Exorcism of Emily Rose .

Dangs , but the last part of the film freaks me a little .

Its says it is a true story i think ,

and i began thinking of how it will be if its true .

And when i'm walking back home ,

i felt chills up my spine .

Dangs , i'm such a timid person .

I'm cutting down on water before sleeping time .

Andand , i will peee everything out before i sleep {:

Laughs , as i'm typing , i'm constantly turning back to look behind me .

I'm really so timid {:

Oh yeah , i just discover a curse that is cast upon me .

I'll be watching my last movie on every november 20 .

Beverly hills chiwawa last year & Paranormal activity this year .

Its a curse , it is .

I cannot let myself cross so easily & i can't change me .

I'm so-so-so qian bian i think .

21 november will be a dreadful day for me .

Now i hate 20th , which happens to be my favourite number .

Alright , fullllllll stopppppp to negative stuff .

Someone told me i'm a happy lucky go guy ,

though it was years ago .

But its the fact {:

I'm bring my mood back "high" up now .

If only someone comes along & pick me up from this predicament ...

Okay , lets drunk on Margarita .

I think i gave myself another

things to regret in future